I Need You To Love Me

 Yay for Post #2!

I always feel a bit overwhelmed when I think about trying to organize my thoughts into writing but I think when I just start it comes out pretty good on its own. [mustbeaGodthing]

So today I spent a wonderful afternoon with one of my sweet sweet friends. I love our long talks about our lives now and laughing about old times. She is such an encourager, listener, and strong woman of the Lord. She gives me the best advice! Especially today. We were talking about how when we are at school we are consumed by rules and to do lists. We try to fix everything on our own by having it all organized out and getting everything done.  I am the queen of doing things because I have to and filling my day with "things to do". When I complete the tasks I have had planned I feel accomplished and at peace with my successful day. Sometimes I forget that I am not in control of my life and that I cannot fix everything. This comes into play with my walk with the Lord. I catch myself spending time with the Lord because that is what I am suppose to do. However, the motivation for spending time with the Lord is all wrong. I can walk the walk and talk the talk but how do I get that wanting to spend time with the Lord everyday?

This is where her advice comes in to play. She told me "At the end of the day it all comes down to the Lord wantings us to Love, how we love the Lord, ourselves, and others around us." Love. That's it. I am saved from eternal damnation only by LOVE. I think it is so easy for me to let this become dull and passionless in my life.

John 3:16 "For God so LOVED the world, that he gave his one and only son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."

Romans 5:8 "But God demonstrated his great LOVE for us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us."

1 John 3:1 "See how great a LOVE the Father has bestowed upon us, that we should be called children of God; and such we are. For this reason the world does not know us, because it did not know Him."

 

He loves me so much. It sounds cliche that I am saying this but its so true. All he wants is from me is to Love him back and to love others around me so that they can see his love through me.

I was driving home today and for some reason I randomly changed to one of the christian radio stations. The song that came on was I Need you to Love Me. I love this song because my sweet friend mentioned earlier actually sang this song for a chorus thing at my school. It was such a coincidence that this song was one at the exact moment I changed that station. I love seeing the Lord do things like this. He is constantly wooing me back to him. How special! 

Why? Why are you still here with me?
Didn’t you see what I’ve done?
In my shame I want to run,
And hide myself.
Yeah, but it’s here I see the truth,
I don’t deserve you.
But I need you to love me,
And I, I won’t keep my heart from you this time.
And I’ll stop this pretending that I can,
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need you to love me
I, I have wasted so much time
Pushing you away from me.
I just never saw how you
Could cherish me.

Cause you’re a God who has all things,
And still you want ME.

 [Barlow Girl]

I want to spend time with him because I love him and he is loving me back in a way that I could never wrap my mind around. How cool is that. The Creator of the Universe LOVES ME!

With Love From My Father,

Diane Elizabeth